Somewhere in My Mind

I surrender to my random thoughts... and i write... whatever I find... somewhere in my mind

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I've Packed My Bags


Would I survive if I leave my cocoon?
Should I ever? Or should I soon?
Right now I’m ready to find out
I’m ready to fight, ready to shout
Coz I’ve packed my bags, they’re at the door
I’ve passed them several times, I just ignore
Throw over my shoulder the stupid thought of flying
Is it stupid, if it stops the crying?
When do I get the right to be me
Or is that someone I’ll never see?
I’m desperate to find a solution to this blocked maze
In there, at the end is where the beginning stays
Held captive in what I now call home
Its season, time to migrate…its just…birds don’t migrate alone.

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Monday, July 17, 2006

Languages

yeah i've always been interested in learning new languages, but don't have the time...

A long way back during my wee schooling days, i was forced to take French lessons.

i did. for three whole years, an hour once a week. the first year wasn't bad...then the teacher left and a new lady came, an egyptian who spoke french as her second language....so you've got the egyptian french accent going on...

trust me, with this particular lady, it may be considered noise pollution.

well after those three years i took a 3 week course at a language summer camp. I fell in love with Spanish. I learnt more spanish in 3 weeks than i did french in 3 years.

My current interests are to :
  1. Continue learning spanish - get a certificate
  2. Continue my arabic sign language lessons and get my certificate.
  3. Learn Swahili...I love the language! its adorable lol...no but seriously i think its unique. i've already started through internet sites, practising with colleagues, borrowed a dictionary swahili-english-arabic...its great, written by an Omani.
  4. no, there is no third yet... unless... as i discovered with a close friend, jebali is also an interesting language

if i could afford it, i'd take 6 months off work and learn all four languages...mmm ok maybe replace jebali with a language i would use more in work, u know another common language used in the world...whats the 2nd most used? after english comes...french? AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

No actually its NOT!!!

i just did a quick search and the most commonly spoken languages in the world are as follows:

SOURCE: Top 5 Languages of the World - Source TIME Almanac 2001

  1. Mandarin Chinese: 885 million
  2. Spanish: 332 million
  3. English: 322 million
  4. Bengali: 189 million
  5. Hindi: 182 million

OMG...so i've done English (which came THIRD!), I'm trying to do Spanish...and next i guess should be...mandarin chinese?!

You ask where are the frenchies? good question...here is a list i found:

SOURCE: The Summer Institute for Linguistics (SIL) Ethnologue Survey (1999)lists the following as the top languages by population:(number of native speakers in parentheses)

  1. Chinese* (937,132,000)
  2. Spanish (332,000,000)
  3. English (322,000,000)
  4. Bengali (189,000,000)
  5. Hindi/Urdu (182,000,000)
  6. Arabic (174,950,000)
  7. Portuguese (170,000,000)
  8. Russian (170,000,000)
  9. Japanese (125,000,000)
  10. German (98,000,000)
  11. French (79,572,000) <-----------------HELLO?? or should i say...ALO!!!

This was an interesting find though...according to this guy Weber, “Top Languages: The World’s 10 Most Influential Languages” in Language Today (Vol. 2, Dec 1997): ok its TEN years back mind u...

  1. Mandarin Chinese (1.1 billion)
  2. English (330 million)
  3. Spanish (300 million)
  4. Hindi/Urdu (250 million)
  5. Arabic (200 million)
  6. Bengali (185 million)
  7. Portuguese (160 million)
  8. Russian (160 million)
  9. Japanese (125 million)
  10. German (100 million)
  11. Punjabi (90 million)
  12. Javanese (80 million)
  13. French (75 million)

However, in terms of secondary speakers, Weber submits the following list:(number of speakers in parentheses)

  1. French (190 million)
  2. English (150 million)
  3. Russian (125 million)
  4. Portuguese (28 million)
  5. Arabic (21 million)
  6. Spanish (20 million)
  7. Chinese (20 million)
  8. German (9 million)
  9. Japanese (8 million)

Thus, if you add the secondary speaker populations to the primary speaker populations, you get the following (and I believe more accurate) list:(number of speakers in parentheses)

  1. Mandarin Chinese (1.12 billion)
  2. English (480 million)
  3. Spanish (320 million)
  4. Russian (285 million)
  5. French (265 million)
  6. Hindi/Urdu (250 million)
  7. Arabic (221 million)
  8. Portuguese (188 million)
  9. Bengali (185 million)
  10. Japanese (133 million)
  11. German (109 million)

So i guess i'm gonna have to go for russian next, then french, then hindi. Good i've got english and arabic done.

i've got a lot of work to do hahaha...and i was thinking Jebali!

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

I'm Jailed


Although you'll see me out and about
I still feel that I’m always inside looking out
I’m jailed behind invisible bars
No one can see my suffocation scars
Let me be, let me make my own mistakes
Don’t worry; I’ll get over the pain and aches
I’d prefer it rather than rotting in this routine
Don’t forbid me to live my life to the extreme
It’s hard I can’t reach the freedom that I deserve
One day its gonna get on my last nerve
Anytime like a twig, I’m just gonna snap
Gonna tell them to go to hell and quit the crap
Let them realise that I’ve finally had it
I’m not kidding when I say I’m gonna hit the road and split
Get away from this place that’s been choking me
Head to a place where I can really be free
I'm jailed and i'm gonna find a way out
thats my promise to myself and i'll keep it without a doubt.

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

Where should i go from here?


I'm always at the crossroads of my life...

You see...
I've got a few places in my mind that I might travel to soon.

London? Wales? Abu Dhabi? Should I got to Beirut?

I say soon, but soon is always later in my mind. I mean who am i kidding? i've got no goals in my life...well none other than emotional security and to finally reach to a point where my freedom is not limited by society and family...

Maybe i do have a goal...its probably at the back of my head...that would explain why I’m not getting there...because i do not acknowledge it...or maybe i just can't formulate it into a comprehendible target...and as long as it is not comprehendible, then it will stay unfeasible.

Sometimes i feel that even if i make a left or a right in my life...i'm still lost and don't know where to go...

I’m not sure if changing my location would get me any further to my vague goal...

Are we all lost like that? Am i still 'discovering' myself? i'm 25...shouldn't i be over this phase?

I wonder if i can blame this on society...or even my parents...hahaha...i should've been a shrink.

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

So i said i have no clue...

and i'll tell you why...


A friend of mine started her blog a few days ago...so i got curious to see what it was all about.
I created an account and thought... hmm let me try this and see if it really is enjoyable to me then i'll carry on. so this is my first post....my trial post...its from here on, either i love it or i hate it.


I might ignore this blog...i might just use it to post my poems...try to see what other people around the world think of my writing...

:) lets see how it goes for me...

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